6"Do not give dogs what is sacred; do not throw your pearls to pigs. If you do, they may trample them under their feet, and then turn and tear you to pieces.
Half of the troubles of this life can be traced to saying yes too quickly and not saying no soon enough. ~Josh Billings
I also had to relinquish control. I needed to realize God is driving. I realized that with or without me His will would be accomplished. I couldn't save everyone, fix all the broken homes in the world, or take in everyone that needed a place to stay, but God could.
I learned that there is such a thing as casting my pearls before swine. Matthew 7:6 6"Do not give dogs what is sacred; do not throw your pearls to pigs. If you do, they may trample them under their feet, and then turn and tear you to pieces. Look at those consequences! Torn to pieces? Yup, that's exactly how I felt sitting in my bed in tears. I was torn to pieces by too many different roles.
And most importantly, I learned that God cares deeply about the state of my heart. 'Above all else, guard your heart' (Prov. 4:23)... It doesn't say guard your heart because it's criminal; it says guard yur heart because it is the wellspring of your life, because it is a treasure, because everything else depends on it. How kind of God to give us this warning, like someone's entrusting to a friend something precious to him, with the words: 'Be careful with this -- it means a lot to me.' ~ John Eldredge in Waking the Dead I removed the lie from my heart that I couldn't take time off, that I couldn't say no.
So two days ago, I finally did it. I said no. A hat was brought to me to place on, but I just did not have the energy or resources to wear it, and you know what? That's okay. I think in this day and age Satan's biggest strategy for the church is to keep us busy. Keep us so busy that we fail to realize what's happening to our hearts, to our families, to our lives until it's too late and you end up crying in the bed at 2am with a bewildered husband by your side. But now I know better. Even Jesus had boundaries, and that's good enough evidence for me.